I just spent last week with Hunter and Forrest. It was amazing being with them. It was a constant reminder that baby parks will be here soon. I loved waking up in the middle of the night and listening to Forrest sleep through the baby monitor and hearing Hunter tell me about his favorite Legos- over and over. I have been blessed with an abundance of patience when it comes to children and I am so grateful. It just makes me enjoy them that much more. :-)
In FIVE weeks it will be baby Parks due date. FIVE little weeks. I literally catch myself day dreaming about it all the time. I've wanted to me a momma for the longest time... I can't believe that in five weeks that will actually be one of my names... A badge that I will carry proudly. I have been through so much hurt and pain in the last 3 years. Each mountain I've had the privilege of climbing I have come barreling down gaining cuts and bruises along the way. But I wouldn't take it back, or undo any of it. My life and my situation in life has brought me so much closer to Jesus. When there is no where else to turn, when you are absolutely at the bottom of your heart Jesus will fill it and hold you and heal you... I feel like I am an every day example of that. I am so thankful for all the trials and pain I've had to go through, and for the ones coming in the future too. My life has no meaning unless God is at the center.
When joey and I first sat down and saw that we had to raise 11,000.00 in three months for the adoption, we KNEW that we couldn't do it. We prayed and God had a plan. First things first was to send out "support letters". I remember waking up to God tugging at my heart, telling me I need to write a support letter. And I also remember thinking "no thank you... The last thing I ever want to do is ask my friends and family for money". Joey and I were working on getting our finances in order and we had ZERO dollars in our savings account... How could we even think about adopting? God had a plan from the very start. Humbly Joey and I wrote out the letter. I addressed and stamped each one... I remember praying over them and then sending them all out. It seemed unrealistic to think in three months that anyone could come up with 11 grand. Then the donations started coming in. People pledging to pray for us, people giving, and giving. I was in shock the first month. I don't know why I was so shocked... I mean from the start this whole thing was God's plan. "Come ON KayC, where's your faith!!"- right!? By the two month mark we had raised $10,000.00 by way of donations and God giving Joey and I both extra work. Joey being able to work overtime was all in Gods perfect timing. Adding about $2,000.00 each month to our fund.
Here we are in our 3rd month and we need to raise about $1,300.00. That's all. AND this week we have already received $300.00 more in support! HOW INCREDIBLE!!!! Each dollar that is raised is a testament to God. To his faithfulness, to the fact that baby Parks's life has a plan- and a big one. What a blessing. What an unbelievable story of provision. We are so thankful for all the donations, all the help that has been given... We are so thankful for each prayer prayed as we prepare for our son. We are SO incredibly thankful for God's plan in our lives.
So yeah, we had to ask for help... A lot of help. It humbled us... It wasn't easy. I sit here writing this and I am so blessed to say that I would do it all again, following God's plan is so much better than following my own. I know I have a lot to learn as a new momma, and as a daughter of Christ... I know that things won't be easy, and I also know that sometimes being a parent "stinks". I'm so thankful though, thankful as to where my heart is, what I've learned and how much I know I will appreciate being a momma. Oh GOODNESS!!!!!!
5 weeks!!!!!!!! Eeeeeeeek!!!!!!
I am excitedly signing off!
Love,
KayC
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